June 25, 2015.

Sometimes I really hate explaining to people the things I can’t do because of the unknown chronic pain I’ve been having for over a year. I can’t put a cause on it except for labeling it stress cramps which generally leads to back pain, I don’t even know how to explain how it works because I know no one is like me.. I can only describe it as muscles tighten when I’m anxious, nervous, agitated… it’s the same reason my jaws lock all the time, especially when I’m cleaning ocd style(this used to come side by side with my stress cramps), and the same also happens at the dentist.

It’s like my body physically have anxiety, but I don’t.. Mentally, I’m the happiest I’ve ever been… so what is it? what’s causing this? It’s way too weird. Is there such a thing as muscle hyper-tension?? But things I’ve been avoiding have shown improvement lately, and that is taking it easy, forcing myself to take it slow. Avoid, high tension situations,.

The reason that ever got remotely close to describing what might be the case, are articles that states this is a common trait among empaths, along with IBS. Neither have any medically proven explanation whatsoever.

Anyway, lost track of my point… what I wanted to say is, every BODY is different, people should stop saying everything is easy and I should just try harder..

Reality is, some things easy for you, might be impossible for me… and some things easy for me, might also be impossible for you… It’s not because either is better than another, it’s because we’re just different. I don’t expect everyone to be able to do the same things I do, and neither should others expect me vice versa. You are not me, and I am not you. End of story.

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